Self-care bullet journal (aka attempt number 27 to try bullet journaling)

Ok, so it hasn’t really been 27 attempts, but sometimes it feels that way. I never liked the idea of using a bullet journal as a planner AND a journal… and frankly, as a planner it never worked for me. I’ve tried a few different planners, and really only the ban.dō planners worked for me. I have no real reason why — they’re just basic planners, but something about them I liked and therefore I used them.

Anyway. As I was working my way through my actual journal (above — shown with two other daily pieces of my self-care regiment), I realized I needed something … different. I’ve always been a little envious of creative journaling and whatnot, and wanted my journal to be a bit more than it was. But the thing is.. my journal does work for me. It’s a brain-dump, and frankly, I need that. Yet, I still needed something to supplement that. Something maybe a little more structured, and uniquely focused on self-care.

So. Yet again, I ripped pages out of my failed attempts at bullet journaling, and am trying again.

It’s fairly simple. I’ve got a basic layout that is easy to replicate, therefore it only really takes me maybe 2 minutes to setup the next day. Each area is just to keep track of how I’m doing, and essentially, as best ink on paper can do, hold me a little accountable for taking care of myself.

I’m tracking my mood, activity, water intake, how I hygged, moments of positivity and/or gratitude, what I’d like to improve or let go of, daily health notes, and what action steps I’d like to take to address any issues or just things I need to do. I wanted something that, as I mentioned, was easy to replicate each day but also easy to change if it needed to evolve. It’s also very easy to fill out before bed. Outside of the action steps and what to improve/release, there’s very little actual reflection required of me. I’m able to keep all of that for my journal.

So while I haven’t had a good track record at all with bullet journaling, I’m more optimistic about this one. It’s sort of funny when you start googling “bullet journal” to get ideas… you’ll sometimes find these lists of Do’s and Don’ts… But honestly, there are no rules. And that’s one of the great things about any form of journaling. It’s either what you need, or it isn’t. You just go until you find what works for you — and sometimes that isn’t journaling. Which is totally ok.

I know I’ve asked before, but anyone else doing any self-care journaling?

And the living’s been easy…

I hope your summer is starting off well.

We’ve been on break for over a month now, and I didn’t quite realize just how much I needed this time off. It’s helped me adjust to having the roommates around again. And, I know this next year is going to be extremely taxing with completing my thesis and all of the impending edits and rewrites that are just part of the process — so I’m enjoying the peace and quiet and slowness that I’m being afforded right now.

Here’s some highlights of what’s been going on:

I have been playing quiet a bit of Stardew Valley. I actually even got my roommate hooked on it, too. Which wouldn’t be a problem if we weren’t sharing my account for the game. Which is actually not even an issue. I don’t mind sharing my computer or Steam account. The only downside is that it looks like I’ve either left the game open for days or that I’m spending 16 hours a day playing.

On Memorial Day, the roommate and I went to Mounds State Park. We didn’t hit all the trails, but got in a nice little 3 mile hike. We saw the Great Mound maybe 7 times because of how some of the trails intersect. It was a lot of fun, though unfortunately I discovered that allergies are still a thing and we left earlier than planned because it felt like my head was going to implode. Next time I’ll know to take some meds before we go. We’re hoping to hit a few more parks this year, so it should be a lot of fun!

I should hopefully hear back about a job soon. It’s nothing exciting, but pays well and that’s just fine. Being able to get food and not being homeless definitely trumps any kind of snobbery about any job. I’m also starting the interview process for an assistantship position for this fall. It’s with another department, but in the same building which is nice. Regardless, it’s got full tuition and a stipend. If I get this, and keep the job, I’ve decided I’m still taking out loans for the year, but they’re going into a savings fund for when I graduate so I can use them for moving. I don’t want my finances to keep me from starting a PhD program or a job because I can’t get a U-Haul or put a deposit down on an apartment.

I have a couple health things going on — meeting again with a specialist for a follow-up this afternoon — but it’s still nothing compared to living with endometriosis pre-surgery. It’s sounding like the next step might be a pill-cam to check things out. Honestly, I’m not sure we’ll pin point exactly what’s going on… But I think we’re going to be able to control the symptoms. Despite the occasional pain from this, I’ve been feeling really well. It’s been over one year since my surgery, and as tough as a choice that was, I’m grateful for having my life back.

I don’t really have big plans for the rest of the summer. Hiking. Cooking. Adventures with the roommates. Hanging out with the nieces. Streaming. Reading non-academic texts. Quite honestly, I’m not sure I’d have it any other way.

How’s your summer starting off?

Currently… (5/18/18)

Feeling: Tired? Bummed? So you know how I wasn’t really looking for much on Tinder? Yeah. Met someone, thought we really clicked, and was super excited to get to know him more… and then everything crashed down. The next day he revealed himself to be an asshole. He accused me of being a slut and a liar… and.. yeah. I’m still kind of hurt about it. If this is dating, I’ll just pass.*

Watching: Nothing that spectacular. I’ve been going through a few shows, but nothing I’m super excited about. I’ve tried looking for new shows — maybe not that hard — but yeah, just haven’t found anything yet. Open to suggestions though!

Playing: Nothing really. Occasionally Two Dots or Dots & Co. on my phone, but yeah. That’s about it. I charged up the Switch recently, so I’m thinking of getting back to Zelda. And, after talking with a few friends, I might boot up the gaming PC and get back to Overwatch and Destiny 2 maybe. Of course, after the million of updates I likely have.

Listening To: Macklemore’s Gemini on repeat in my car. I’ve cut down on my podcasts, and haven’t needed to be on campus so early, so I’m not listening to NPR as much either.

Reading: The Left Hand of Darkness by Ursula Le Guin. I haven’t read anything of hers before, but had seen an adaptation of one of the Earthsea novels once. It’s been going a little slow, but that’s more been to just being pretty tired in the evenings which is when I normally read…

Working on: my CITI training. It’s required for my IRB approval. Which is required for my thesis research. Basically it’s all the legal and ethical stuff regarding using human subjects for my research. It’s boring. Really boring. But required. Hoping to get it done next week, and then I’ll submit my proposal to the board for approval. And then my colleague and I will get our proposal ready for the independent research project we’re working on outside of our theses.

Thinking about: my car. I was in an accident back in late March, early April… and we’re still working on getting everything fixed. The accident could have been worse than it was, and my car is still drivable. So I’m grateful for that. But definitely ready for my car to be fixed.

Craving: a vacation? The semester ended, and then I had roommates move in right away. And while I’ve taken a small break from my research, I haven’t really been able to have a me break. And I need one of those. If I had the money, I’d just go off to a B&B somewhere within a day’s drive… but I don’t. So, I’ve got to figure out another way to get in a break.

Looking forward to: the market this weekend. It’s my second weekend at the market, and I’m hopeful to see some repeat shoppers! I’m getting to know the community there, slowly, and they’re getting to know me and my work. I’m excited about the sales I’m implementing this weekend!

Making me happy: … things are getting back on track. Yeah, that little tinder thing was a hiccup I didn’t need. But overall, things are good. I’m waiting to hear back about my position on the conference executive board. Hoping to get some mentorship programs going with my advisor. The jewelry business has gotten amazing feedback. My mentor said I had a superpower when it comes to my lectures. The weather’s great, I can sit on the porch and read… Things are just feeling normal again. And for that, I am truly grateful.

*I know not all dating is like that. And there are actual good guys out there… it just sucks to get excited about someone and to realize just how wrong you were about them.