big choices….

27 August 2009

I’m still sick.  … I’m not happy about it.  … I’m about five coughs away from calling up my old Chinese roommate and asking her for some dynasty approved cure… Seriously. I’m done with this.


I’ve had a lot to think about lately — more so than my despise for this virus running a muck through my respiratory system.  I feel like I’m in, or entering a transition phase of life again.  That I’ve got big choices for big changes.

Do I start my career as a professional writer, but have to leave Chicago? Or do I stay and start grad school, possibly forgoing an income for loans?  Or do I fail at accomplishing either of those and end up moving back to Indiana?

Wait, backup.  You read that right.. I applied for a writing job not in Chicago.  Wasn’t I just going on and on about not wanting to move away from Chicago?  Well. Yeah.  I still love this city.  I still have crushes I’m not ready to give up on yet.  I’ve got my band, my friends, my bus routes, my cupcakes… this is my city.  But when a dear friend of mine told me about this writing job she thought I’d love… I had to look into it.

Learning more about the company, well, I couldn’t pass up the opportunity to work for them.  So I applied.  All of my parents are supporting me in this, as is my brother — who’s going to help me find a car that can handle driving in snow, because I cannot handle driving in snow.  I’m sure the kittens will be okay with the move too because I’ll finally be able to pull their kitty tower out of storage.

I really want this job.  Really want.  However, this will be pushing my grad school dreams back.  Can I be okay with that?  You’d think I was completely batty, but I cannot wait to get back into a classroom.  I can’t wait to take lit classes and be required to write, write, write until my hand falls off.  I want to pursue writing, publishing, and literature academically.  … but this is a writing job (in a great company no less).  And that’s pretty awesome.

You know me.  You know my outlook.  Things will work out.  But if you could cross your fingers, pray, keep me in your thoughts for getting this job… that’d be super.  Seriously.  How often am I this freaking excited to leave the city I love for a place that snows, a lot, and I’d need a car and have to drive through said snow…

  • 1. Feel better because we have dinner plans tomorrow. It’s been too long since I’ve seen you.

    2. Whatever happens, I 100% support you!

    • Thanks! I plan on coming.. even if it’s in a hazmat suit so I don’t get you two sick… though that could make eating awkward… But other than a cough, I’m feeling back to normal. Well, once I shower I’ll feel back to normal….

      And thanks for the support! It goes both ways!! Hopefully I get this job so I can afford to fly out to LA to visit!! 🙂

  • It doesn’t snow THAT much more than here…

    • oh it does too! they’ve had over 100 inches in ONE winter!

      And really, it only takes a couple inches (like 2) before I start freaking out. I’ve ended up in a corn field before… I have my reasons! maybe I should give up on engines and wheels and get a horse…

  • Ack, snow. I’m not sure I’d ever move back north – and I grew up there, living 21 years of my life completely immersed in it! Anywho, look a bit more into the company and see if they have a tuition assistance program (my company does). If so, you might feel a bit better about putting the grad school plans off for a bit.

    • I’m okay with Chicago snow… the city takes care of it well… and I’ve been told they take care of the snow up there well too (rumor has it even the bike paths get plowed before the morning commutes!)

      I think I still want to take classes while working. I need to figure out the whole “non-degree seeking, yet still wants credit” thing… I think it means I just need to apply towards a degree. The main writing program there, at UW-Madison, is really competitive. They’ve got funding, which most writing programs don’t. But I might work on a MA in Literature… then work on an MFA/MA in Creative Writing & Publishing… I really want to study Folklore right now, get into the old old classics. (I really want to study Perrault!) But yes, it is indeed something to look into.

      I at least know that if/when I move I do have a writing group to join — which is awesome.

  • Moving away from all your friends and family is not easy, and I don’t recommend it. Think very hard before doing this. Jobs will come and go, but close (both in proximity and comfort) friends are hard to come by.

    • awww… McBastard, if you don’t want me to leave, just say so… 😉

      Most of my friends I interact with online now… I mean, Chrizzle moved years ago, Lovely moved, Jenn’s moving, Rachel lives in the burbs, my old roommates never leave Evanston, Bant’s busy with his science — as is Oats, who’s also in the burbs… Pham’s always running, no one can ever find DShan… I don’t see Mawls or Laura that often… My Pilsen potluck group has disbanded… The Virginian and I might be on and off as he’s trying to deter FWB…
      … however… my bandmates… I see them often(ish)… and will definitely miss them. (and all of the above PLUS more)

  • Good thoughts for you!!

    • Thanks!! 🙂

  • I will definitely keep my fingers crossed for you! Go with your gut!!

    • Thanks Leah!!

  • There’s a place that gets more snow than Chicago??

    • Chicago’s not that bad. wimp. 😉

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