I’ve mentioned it a few times, but when it comes to dating I’m a fairly forward girl. Most of the time, I’m not shy about telling a guy that I like him. However, sometimes, I can come on a little strong. And that’s what I’m attempting to work on.
In my past, I feel like there has been a good handful of guys who I’ve somewhat scared off because of the whole “holy crap I really like you” thing I tend to have going on… After feeling so comfortable and so great with one person, I tend to want to know what’s going on. I want some sort of definition or declaration of what our relationship is. It’s not necessarily a bad thing, but I definitely bring that subject up a bit too early.
I’m having to rewire my mind to try to avoid the pink fluffy brain goo. I want to be able to enjoy being with someone and not getting caught up in the whole mess of trying to figure out what’s going on. No, I don’t really know how it goes from “I’m sort of seeing someone” to “this is my boyfriend”… but I really need to stop being concerned with that. It will happen, and it will happen when it’s ready to happen.
It’s a lot easier to tell myself to stop, calm down, and breathe than it is to do just that. But when it comes down to finding that one person who I really want to be with, I need to prepare myself to try not to muck things up the best I can! I seriously don’t want to be the crazy girl!
(Luckily I’ve got a very Lovely friend who seems to be willing to take on the crazy task of keeping me in check!)