this is where I am.

20 November 2009

Some times it takes a lot of soul searching to figure out where you’re at.  And though I may not be able to pin-point it on a map, I feel like I have a halfway decent idea of where I am in life right now.

  • I enjoy my job; my budget is still going to be a little tight, and I’ll still have to do some finagling, but I don’t dread going to work every day.  And that’s awesome.
  • The band is going well; I love hanging out with my fellow nerds and making music.  My intonation is back to a place I can be proud of and so I’m not as afraid to play out more.  In fact, I’ve asked for a duet.  I’m not ready to just improv and solo away, but yeah, I’m ready to have a bit of something.
  • I’m adjusting to friends that have moved away, and are still moving away.  It sucks that I can’t just call/text/IM/twitter them and then go meet with them, but I refuse to let them go from my life.  I just need to invest in some stamps.
  • I’m wanting to be more creative; I’m sketching a little more, and will hopefully start writing more soon.

Basically, I could keep listing factors that are making things good and sort of define where I am right now… but the overall thing is overall I’m pretty happy, and decently confident. Things aren’t perfect, but I’m not letting that stop me.

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With that being said.  I feel like I know where I stand (mostly).  And that I like where things are at (generally).  But it doesn’t mean I wouldn’t mind sharing that with someone else.

As I’ve previously mentioned, I don’t necessarily know where I stand with a couple guys that I’m interested in.  I know what page I’m on, but I’m not sure they’re on the same page I am.

(I also want to say thanks to all the friends who have gotten in touch with me and making sure I know how much I deserve.  It means a lot to me.)

  • I hear you. It’s good to be happy where you are but still want more in maybe other areas in your life. As for guys…it’s taken me THIS long to figure out that it’s for me it’s best to date multiple guys until one is exclusive and stated so out loud. It takes the pressure off and helps to figure out what you like and what you don’t in relationships 🙂

  • Jess

    Wonderful illustration. So pertinent to my life right now on so many fronts! Sorry you experiencing it too. 🙁

  • Jeff

    I know what page I’m on. It just never turns. Never. I’m a cancer and cancers are crabs. Crabs move left, crabs move right. So even if I flip a page right, it will flip back left soon enough.

    • I’m a gemini… so really, I’m on 50 pages all at once.

      Also a rat too, so I’ve probably chewed through all of them anyway.

  • Jeff

    Gemini think twice as fast as everyone else. Cancer live very slow. So you’re a twin rat? I’m a crab scorpion, so I’m heavily armored with a stinger.

    • wait….. the rat part is my chinese sign.

  • Jeff

    Yes, and the crab is a cat, but I can’t remember what the scorp is in Chinese mythology. I hope its a unicorn.


      (everyone who was not in on our IM conversation is now lost…)

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