#reverb: We try. (from the abstract to cheese)

I signed up for this thing called #reverb10. A month full of prompts guided to help me reflect on this past year and focus on goals for the next.

December 18: Try.
What do you want to try next year? Is there something you wanted to try in 2010? What happened when you did / didn’t go for it? (Author: Kaileen Elise)

I’m going to come back to prompt 17 — I need more time to think about it. And I think I might skip prompt 19 — because thinking of “healing” only frustrates me, given my current medical condition. So. That leaves prompt 18. Try.

My first thoughts go directly to my life/bucket list. It still feels like it could become a “things I never got done” list.  And looking at the list, I’m not sure I could pick just one item I really want to try, over the others, for 2011.  Bass clarinet would be fun, as would starting a small press or making a quilt.  But none of these, or much else from my list really pulls at me.

Ultimately, what I’d like to try is abstract — to be stronger, healthier, more confident.  I think it’s what most of us want; to continue to grow.  To keep moving forward.

As this reverb project has shown me, or at least have me verbalize, is that this has been a transitional year for me — a bridge year.  It’s a year that is hopefully bringing me something forward into something positive.  And I’d like to try to find a sense of accomplishment in this something positive and to hold on to it.

More concretely?  2011 just seems so… foreign.  While it’s really only a couple weeks away, it feels like a far off island I don’t know about yet.  So many options.  I know I do want to try something, I just can’t narrow it down yet.  I love that there are so many possibilities in those 12 months — and hopefully beyond.  It’s exciting.  And I don’t want anything, including myself, to hold me back.

So really, in 2011 I’m going to try to make the most of it.

It may be one of those hokey, all encompassing statements… but it’s still what I’m going to try.

I also think I want to try to make my own fondue.  I know it’s not that hard, I just want more hot cheese in my life.

What are you trying — grand, abstract, or whatever?