Last weekend I decided to take down my design site, AdorkableDesign.com. I still own it, and may use it again in the future. But for the time being, dork design is gone… and well, I won’t be doing much, if any, freelance design work either*.
It wasn’t a rash decision. I was actually acting on advice from one of my instructors. She own her own firm, has worked in the industry for a while, and does some pretty awesome work. Though she even says herself that she’s still learning, she knows what she’s talking about. And recently she gave me some really harsh truth.
I’m not at the level where I should be concerned with freelance work. I can’t earn the money it’d be worth absorbing my energies in such freelance work. At this point, it’s really not going to benefit me. The only good thing would be that I would be doing more work — one of the things we’re told over and over again: keep producing work. It doesn’t have to be the best ever, just keep producing more and more work. But taking away my focus from my school work isn’t worth any of this. Hearing that was hard.
I call myself a rock star because it reminds me that I can and will be absolutely amazing. I will be a damn good designer, and one day, an even better art director. I’m at school because I’m not at the level I need to be, or even want to be. Not currently. But I will be. I’ll be the person that companies like Leo Burnett or Ogilvy will seek out to work with. I have the drive and passion, I’m just not there yet otherwise.
My instructor lent that book to me, It’s Not How Good You Are, It’s How Good You Want To Be. And yes, it’s on my birthday wish list. It’s a good reminder that no matter how hard some of this seems — no matter how down I get, how frustrated I am at my executions, or how hurt I get from criticism — it’s my drive and passion and love for this that will keep me going. I am going to be a stronger person. I’ve got a lot of ideas and even more potential. And I look forward to seeing how far I’ll go.
Of course, I have to remind you that I can’t get there without help — click here to do so. $64 keeps me in school for the day, and gets me one step closer to my dream. I might even become a human billboard for you each day you support me. Just saying.
*I’ll still be doing some freelance web work. Coding and consultation — I’ll help you set up your blog or site, and even integrate it with your social media. (And if you’re my classmate, I can do some minor tutoring in the adobe programs and even social media…)