breathing easier, and making plans.

I have a love-hate relationship with planning (and the phrase “I’ve got a lot on my mind”). I love it–it’s fun. But well, spontaneity and just going… awesome. Like many things, it’s all about balance.

I’m trying to figure out if I want to meet an upcoming application deadline. If I want to drop a lot of cash and go to Vegas with 59 other bloggers. Or if I want to drop cash and do a solo writing retreat in Baton Rouge. Or find someone to join me for a looong weekend of jazz (and some writing) in New Orleans. Oh. And I’m trying to decide if I want to stay in my current apartment, or switch to another in the building… or just go somewhere new.

We’re only 2 weeks into the year, and I already cannot wait to fill the pages of my new little planner*. Even if it’s the day after. Concerts and tours. Dinner dates. REAL dates. And a vacation of some sorts. And maybe even my surgery, assuming I still need it.

All of this is a little easier now. If you follow me on twitter or are a FB friend, then you already know this… but I was recently put on salary at work. Means I’m even more officially a staff member. It’s awesome. What’s more awesome is what it comes with: benefits. I now have health insurance. Not to mention paid sick days and vacation. I’m really enjoying my work, and I’m kind of rocking this job. My boss pointed out, after we shook on my new status, I’m less stressed. I’m hoping that’ll stay true for a while longer. In fact, I even told myself that tomorrow I’m going to have an “I can conquer the world!” attitude. Somedays you just need to tell yourself to be fearless, and then make it happen.

*As pretty as they are, I’m happy I saved my money and went with a whatever-brand planner from Target rather than get an Erin Condren one. Maybe one day.