small steps or big leaps?

20 August 2012

When it comes to many things, including big life things, I’m definitely great at talking, planning, and dreaming. But I fall short on the doing part.

Granted, I love the talking, planning, and dreaming part. In fact, I really wish it was a full time job where I could hand it off to a bunch of doers to get projects up and going, and then you know, keep them going. I realize that yes, there are real jobs like this, but again: talker/planner/dreamer. (Also, I don’t always know what these jobs are called.)

Anyway. As you’ll remember, at the end of last year I decided I wanted to take my writing more seriously so I enrolled into the University of Chicago’s Writer’s Studio. It’s a small step towards my goal. Which is a really good thing–I’ve only completed one quarter and I know a lot more good writing and writing habits will come out of this (as well as 100+ pages of “publish-worthy” writing at the very end)… However, yes, I’m also impatient.

Recently, as in 9 days ago, Katherine moved in with me. She quit her job, packed up her stuff, and moved across the country. Abby, along with moving around the world to South Korea, also just self-published two books. Those are big leaps.

I’ve made some big leaps in my past; moving to Chicago, quitting jobs, joining a crazy group of band nerds, cutting off the majority of my hair… But it hasn’t felt like I’ve made a BIG leap in quite a while. It also feels like it might be time for one–but I just haven’t figured out any of the details. I feel that if I jump now, it’s going to be more like throwing things at the wall and hoping one of them sticks.

This feeling of not quite being satisfied, but not knowing which direction to turn, has been frustrating. I love having a lot of passions, but it makes figuring out a career path annoying. And most of what I found on blending various passions into a career really was just “here’s how to be a life coach just like me!” or “earn money from your blog!” … I know I’ll figure it out eventually. I just have to hope I can be patient enough to let things get worked out.

Why can’t I just get paid for being awesome?

(also: 600th post y’all.)

  • I feel ya! It’s hard to take everything you love to do and turn it into a job, especially when your a big dreamer and not so much a doer (just like I am). But hey, you are putting what you want out into the Universe so I am sure something will come along sooner rather than later!

    P.S. You ARE awesome. πŸ˜€

    • Erini

      Thanks Cuyler! Fingers crossed the Universe is listening!

  • i’m with you on the getting paid to be awesome. i’m sure something is out there for you; i hope you have the patience for it to reveal itself, too πŸ™‚ or you know, you can have many careers and lots of fun transitioning from one to the next. who says you have to settle for one thing for the long haul?

    also – hooray 600! that’s kinda crazy and amazing πŸ™‚

    • Erini

      It’s been fun jumping around, but it’s nice to have security too. Hopefully whatever’s right for me will find me. Maybe sooner than later. πŸ˜‰

      (and yeah, this year marks 4 years & 600 posts! CRAZY.)

  • esc

    i would totally pay you for being awesome, if i could. if you do find a job like that, please let me know if they’re hiring for multiple positions.

  • I think you are awesome & should totes get paid for it. That said, careers are so tricky. I got tired of people telling me what I could / could not do so I just self-published my book and decided to see if I could be a writer (maybe?) Anyway, I think big leaps are just as important as small steps — but I am impatient and tend to leap. A whole lotta leapin goin on.

    PS when I get BACK to the US I am coming to hang out with you in Chicago. πŸ™‚

    • Erini

      I definitely love having all my various passions, but yeah, definitely makes the career thing tricky.

      I think I might end up doing something similar with writing & publishing. I just need to push myself harder with the writing part first.

      And I cannot wait for you to come to Chicago!! Going to be so much fun! πŸ™‚

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