icing on the cupcake I’m not suppose to eat.

12 February 2013

Last week I talked about how I’ve decided to go on a diet, despite possibly my better judgement about diet books. I still don’t like calling it a diet, because really it’s more about kickstarting a change in eating habits.

My goal of this diet is not necessarily to lose weight. My goal is to be heathy, to make better decisions for my body. And in that, eating better and being more active will in turn mean that I will lose some weight. Which is really just the bonus for feeling better all around.

Healthier lifestyle > Eating better > Lose some weight

I’ve gained weigh over the past year. I no longer walk to work. I ate like crap for a while: hello chips and dip! And I stress-ate a lot. I napped a lot. I developed some bad habits that I’d really like to kick.

And while my goal isn’t necessarily to lose weight, I’d be lying if I said I didn’t care about that at all. Because it’s nice to work towards something, I’m aiming at 15lbs. That’s pretty doable. Anything more is icing on the cupcake that I’m not supposed to eat.

It’s hard talking about weight. Such a person and touchy subject. I thought I might be more comfortable discussing it, but I’m not. And yes, I will say that some of this is because I don’t want particular people judging me. Stupid, I know. I’m not doing this diet for anyone else, not doing it to get a guy. I’m doing it because given my medical conditions, if I don’t start taking better care of myself now, it’ll be extremely hard to start doing so later in life.

I know I will never be a size 2—you’d probably have to shave my hip bones to accomplish that. And I’m ok with that. But if I could go back to the size I was when I was working retail all day and walking a mile to and from work every day… I’d be pretty ok with that too. I’m just making a commitment to myself to be healthier.

  • Weight is hard for me to talk about too. And I’ve gained some since I switched departments and started being social and eating out with my co-workers ALL THE TIME. Eating out is the devil.

    I’ve started small, bringing in my breakfast and lunch, more fresh fruits and veggies and trying for more water, eating out once a week.

    Here’s to better choices!

    • Erini

      I would go out to eat ALL DAY at work. I’d get breakfast on the way in, then go out and buy lunch too. Now a co-worker and I make Trader Joe’s runs and get groceries. (Had to get on my boss though because he kept eating my foods.) I’m also trying to get better at eating breakfast in the morning before I leave too.

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