3 January 2014

It’s a new year and a perfect time for assessing goals and priorities. I mean, that’s just what you do around New Years, right? As I’m reading through various blogs and such, and seeing everyone’s goals and resolutions and new mottos and words… I’m realizing that these are things I can’t apply to my own life. I just don’t have the capacity, right now, to think about these sorts of things.

Before Christmas, yeah, I was actually starting to think about some goals for the new year… But now? I’m in this weird, hazy limbo. There’s too much else going on. Or really, I’ve got to sort out this move before I can do anything else — before I can even think about how I want to move my life forward.

Stress can create this perfect wall. It’s like you’re either trapped inside it and can’t focus on anything else until this is handled, or you’re outside it just not able to deal with it as it implodes on itself. I definitely feel like I’m on the inside part, but still having a hard time dealing with it and just sort of watching it implode in on me.

I want to be able to think about all the awesome things I want to do and accomplish this year. To jump on the bandwagon of “yay 2014!”… A new apartment is definitely a fresh start, and part of that does excite me… but it’s sort of hard even envisioning that happening — and that’s supposedly only two days away! I know it’ll all work out some how, even if I have no idea what that “some how” even is… I know I’ll get through it and this will just be a blip in the past… But right now I’m just stressed.

I feel like I’m a dinosaur stuck in the tar pit, and I’m just ready to give up.

  • I had a similar feeling this morning. I spent much of December doing a lot of big planning and I was so excited for 2014 to get here so I could wash my hands of 2013 and start making all this great stuff happen… but now that it’s here? It’s kind of overwhelming. Hang in there <3

    • Erini

      Thanks Sweeney! 🙂 Hoping once this move is over and done with I can start focusing again.

  • I am actually really ready to bid adieu to 2013, so that may be where my enthusiasm is coming from. I remember having NO enthusiasm about 2012 though — so I can relate.

  • I have to say that the year is long enough for you to get on with the awesome things you want to do! It’s OK if you’re not sure of them now, it’ll come through eventually. Good luck. 🙂

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