FEELING: Tired. Sick. The adjustment to my new meds hasn’t been a fun one. (Pain, extreme nausea.) But hopefully my body will get used to the new levels of hormones and I can start focusing on other things. The entire past week has been like this every day:
WATCHING: Supernatural and Sons of Anarchy for the umpteenth time. The Layover. ANTM, though I don’t know why — those people are just mean.
LISTENING TO: NPR. No surprise there. Also back on my 90s Alt Rock kick.
READING: The Kiss of Deception. Not sure how I feel about it. Was looking for a super light read with some romance (reading’s the most action I’ve gotten in a long while). Oh, and a whole lot of stuff for school. Like, a lot a lot.
WORKING ON: Trying to manage everything. School. Work. My health. It’s not been easy, and I’m sort of afraid something’s going to have to give. I had 2 exams this week, and I missed them both due to this adjustment. Thankfully my profs are letting me reschedule. (All of my professors this term have been way more than understanding about my condition and have all offered to work with me to make sure I don’t get behind.)
THINKING ABOUT: Everything mentioned just directly above.
CRAVING: Not much really. This nausea thing is a jerk. So really what I’m craving isn’t food related… right now I’d just like to be held. That’s about it. Just have someone to share my bed with — not even sex, but just to know someone’s there.
LOOKING FORWARD TO: Getting everything back on track. To not have this condition be the center of focus.
MAKING ME HAPPY: Sleep. Classes. Friends. I know it seems like I’m all down and out because of being sick — it’s frustrating, for sure — but you know, you get through it. The rest of my life isn’t shit just because this one aspect is.