Currently… (5/18/18)

Feeling: Tired? Bummed? So you know how I wasn’t really looking for much on Tinder? Yeah. Met someone, thought we really clicked, and was super excited to get to know him more… and then everything crashed down. The next day he revealed himself to be an asshole. He accused me of being a slut and a liar… and.. yeah. I’m still kind of hurt about it. If this is dating, I’ll just pass.*

Watching: Nothing that spectacular. I’ve been going through a few shows, but nothing I’m super excited about. I’ve tried looking for new shows — maybe not that hard — but yeah, just haven’t found anything yet. Open to suggestions though!

Playing: Nothing really. Occasionally Two Dots or Dots & Co. on my phone, but yeah. That’s about it. I charged up the Switch recently, so I’m thinking of getting back to Zelda. And, after talking with a few friends, I might boot up the gaming PC and get back to Overwatch and Destiny 2 maybe. Of course, after the million of updates I likely have.

Listening To: Macklemore’s Gemini on repeat in my car. I’ve cut down on my podcasts, and haven’t needed to be on campus so early, so I’m not listening to NPR as much either.

Reading: The Left Hand of Darkness by Ursula Le Guin. I haven’t read anything of hers before, but had seen an adaptation of one of the Earthsea novels once. It’s been going a little slow, but that’s more been to just being pretty tired in the evenings which is when I normally read…

Working on: my CITI training. It’s required for my IRB approval. Which is required for my thesis research. Basically it’s all the legal and ethical stuff regarding using human subjects for my research. It’s boring. Really boring. But required. Hoping to get it done next week, and then I’ll submit my proposal to the board for approval. And then my colleague and I will get our proposal ready for the independent research project we’re working on outside of our theses.

Thinking about: my car. I was in an accident back in late March, early April… and we’re still working on getting everything fixed. The accident could have been worse than it was, and my car is still drivable. So I’m grateful for that. But definitely ready for my car to be fixed.

Craving: a vacation? The semester ended, and then I had roommates move in right away. And while I’ve taken a small break from my research, I haven’t really been able to have a me break. And I need one of those. If I had the money, I’d just go off to a B&B somewhere within a day’s drive… but I don’t. So, I’ve got to figure out another way to get in a break.

Looking forward to: the market this weekend. It’s my second weekend at the market, and I’m hopeful to see some repeat shoppers! I’m getting to know the community there, slowly, and they’re getting to know me and my work. I’m excited about the sales I’m implementing this weekend!

Making me happy: … things are getting back on track. Yeah, that little tinder thing was a hiccup I didn’t need. But overall, things are good. I’m waiting to hear back about my position on the conference executive board. Hoping to get some mentorship programs going with my advisor. The jewelry business has gotten amazing feedback. My mentor said I had a superpower when it comes to my lectures. The weather’s great, I can sit on the porch and read… Things are just feeling normal again. And for that, I am truly grateful.

*I know not all dating is like that. And there are actual good guys out there… it just sucks to get excited about someone and to realize just how wrong you were about them.