I need to be better to my body.

Internet, I feel gross.

Like, I just bought Pepto-Bismol from 7-Eleven kind of gross.* And I want to blame this all on what I had for lunch: a huge plate full of pizza.

The BBQ chicken was good, as was the slice of pesto chicken… but when I got to the spinach… I was done for. I immediately felt sick and threw away the remaining slices.

Feeling sick factor number 1: I need to stop eating like I’m some college kid. My metabolism hasn’t changed that much, but still, just because the pizza (or any food) is free doesn’t mean I have to eat my weight in it.

Feeling sick factor number 2: I need to stop saying I’m going to eat better and just start actually eating better. I had started doing this, and then just stopped the moment I got stressed out and good, healthy food was just too much work at the moment.

The amount of pizza I’ve ordered and consumed under stress is embarrassing. Probably 4 pizzas in the past 3 weeks maybe. Just by myself. I mean, yeah, I like pizza. But this is ridiculous. Most of the time I just really want two slices, but I end up with two medium pizzas because it’s cheaper than one large.**

I can say that I’ve been doing really well with switching over to Almond Milk.*** I’ve graduated past just drinking it and using it on cereal/granola to actually doing some cooking with it. Mostly just mac & cheese and potato soup, but it’s been successful thus far. (Though I’ve convinced it gives a slight minty smell to my mac & cheese. Weird, but not off putting.) However, I am starting to worry that this prolonged lack of cow’s milk is turning my stomach against my beloved cheese. Which is another reason that ricotta covered spinach pizza probably didn’t settle well.

Anyway. Starting with this weekend’s grocery trip, I’m attempting round 2 (20? I have no clue any more) of eating better. This is not an Erini going paleo or vegan or veggie or any other sort of thing. It’s just me trying to be smarter about what I’m putting in my body. I don’t want to completely restrict myself, but just not make so many dumb choices when there are a lot of very tasty healthy options out there.

So. With all that being said… What are some of your favorite good for you recipes/meals?? Gonna need a lot of suggestions on snacks because I am the potato chip queen. I just bought a small blender for smoothies, so I’m excited about trying those out as well.

*I also just got a Super Big Gulp of Gatoraid–which is another sign that my stomach is not happy. (Side note: I can’t be the only one who partially choses their Gatoraid based on the color rather than the flavor. It’s like a Kool-Aid and jello thing.)
**Pizza math is sort of amazing.
***I also want to say that I’m doing better with drinking water too. I’ve done almost a bottle a day this week and I was actually craving water last night. This never happens. 

Getting ready for 2012: 12 months, 12 changes.

Last year I wrote some really vague statements about what I hoped for in 2011. Well, with such whatever statements, I basically had no real goals for the year–other than move back to Chicago*. 10 months into the year I decided I needed some actual goals and to start committing to me. I did well with some, okay with others, and just didn’t get anywhere with a few.

But, as we’re getting ready to start a new year, it’s time to think of goals and resolutions and all that stuff. I’ve never really been big on the idea of resolutions, which is strange because I’m really fond of the idea of committing to myself. Maybe it’s because there’s too much bad baggage with resolutions and failing them. But regardless, I like to progress and evolve as a person, so I’m continuing my commitment.

One large part is my participating in 12 Months 12 Changes**. Katherine gives a pretty good explanation of it on her blog, but basically each month you make one small change. By the end of the year, those changes become habit and before you know it you’ve got a whole new way of doing things and just almost a new life right in front of you. My changes include better eating/grocery shopping habits, being more physically active, being stricter about cleaning habits, reading more, drinking more water, and taking control of my finances. I’ve started dividing them into their months, but I want to give myself some freedom in it. I don’t want to overwhelm myself by tackling too many changes at once, but maybe I don’t want to wait 4 months before I start on XYZ. Each month I will commit to at least one change, but there’ll be flexibility.

I want the next year to be about purpose and investment. I don’t want to just waft through this next year. Having fun and enjoying life doesn’t mean being lackadaisical. I’m excited about this next year, and hoping it brings some truly exciting things.

*The company that just hired me folded, so I lost my job and ended up moving back to Indiana temporarily.
**12 Changes won’t be the only goal-oriented thing I’m doing next year, but it’s the only “programmed”/community-based one as of yet. 

committing to me: getting it started

I’ve been making some big statements about wanting to do more with my life. Or at least re-evaluate it. Time to check in on all that.

Creative:

  • I’ve been sketching some more! Not as much as I might like, but I like what I’ve got. Including my weird cross between moby dick and an narwhal.
  • I started brainstorming my stories for NaNoWriMo. This year it’s going to be a collection of short stories. What’s also good with this is I am starting to build a good NaNo network including two lovely bloggers and my very creative coworker.
  • The biggest thing: I finally finished* my portfolio site.

Spiritual:

  • Yeah… I haven’t gone to Meeting at all.

Physical:

  • Yeah… didn’t go walking. Haven’t started yoga or couch5k…
  • I did dance a lot. I may have been a bit drunk, but it was hours of dancing.

Diet:

  • Only went out to lunch once, and that was to Protein Bar. (Okay, I bought donuts last Friday, but it was to share with some of my coworkers.) I’ve been packing leftovers and good sammiches for lunchs. (Turkey & havarti? YES.) I’ve also successfully cooked quinoa twice (tonight included).

Social:

  • All that dancing from above? I went to a friend’s concert. New Orleans’s style brass band. Holy crap these guys are a lot of fun! Hence all the dancing. I mean, I got complete strangers to come up and dance with (or near) me. Plus it was pretty awesome to see my friend in another one of his bands… AND to hear him sing. I mean, I’ve heard him sing in his car, but at a show with a band is different. It was a fun, albeit drunken, night.
  • Another Mucca show last week. So more time with my friends.
  • Okay, it’s still online, but I actually have been corresponding via email with an online friend regularly. We’ve been checking in on each other at least once a week. It’s been awesome.
  • Creative Mornings Chicago tomorrow. I’m going.
  • EDIT: Not sure how I forgot… This goes under Creative too. Reading Band is getting back together!

And that’s where I’m at so far. Going to try to keep checking in every few weeks or month or whatever span of time seems appropriate at the time.

*Okay, nothing’s ever finished when it comes to a portfolio. But stuff is up there now.
**So, the two topics I’m also working on are financial and relationships, but I kind of want to keep that private. (And yes, I realize Rini’s not talking about boys?! omg! I’m still single, and I may or may not like someone… but I’m happy.)