Self-care Check-in — Real thoughts about Goddess Provision’s Sacred Self Care course, and finishing Week 1 of Stratejoy’s Holiday Council

That was a mouthful of a title! If you’ll remember, I signed up for an 8-week self-care course offered through Goddess Provisions. I was looking for something structured, guided, to help get into a better self-care routine.

We’re finishing off Week 5 of the course, and… I’ve been a bit disappointed, honestly.

We were promised 8-weeks of guided activities, journaling, and meditations, all to connect us to our higher selves. And it’s felt like all we have received are weekly PDFs with two to three pages of actual worksheets, an oracle deck, and access to a Facebook group. There are some women in the group who didn’t even really know who the leaders are. Our weekly activities culminate in requests for us to post a picture which almost feels like an aesthetic contest some times.

Much of this course just feels very surface level. Self-care should be more than just taking walks, bubble baths, and dancing. It’s definitely good to treat yourself to these, but it’s only just the start. I will say, though, I do appreciate that they are covering the importance of boundaries. That might be the most beneficial topic they’ve done thus far. But on top of this feeling like just surface level self-care, it definitely doesn’t feel guided. Outside of the weekly email with the PDFs, we don’t hear from the leaders. If they’re active in the Facebook group, it’s not as leaders, but more just other members.

The shortcomings in the Sacred Self-Care course were made all the more glaring after this first week of Stratejoy’s Holiday Council. HoCo18 is 21 days of delving deep to reflect on the past year and prepare ourselves for the year ahead. It includes 3 live calls (each an hour long), recorded interviews with inspirational women, a 36-page worksheet, a very well put together online portal, and access to a private Facebook group. The big difference, Molly, Stratejoy’s founder, is very involved. She’s been guiding women for 9 years now, and it shows that this is her passion.

In completing my first week workbook, I’ve been hitting those “oh holy crap” moments. It’s like this is exactly what I need in my life right now. I’ve been able to look at and face the hardships from this past year with new eyes, seeing them as opportunities to grow, and events that do not define me. I’ve been called to celebrate the good of this year, however minor. Prior to doing this course, the notion of “pride” wasn’t on my radar. But fuck if I don’t feel proud for the growth I’ve made and how the joy I feel in my life right now.

I’ve met some amazing women in both groups — and was very happy to see friends and familiar faces in the HoCo18 group. While the Sacred Self-Care has been disappointing, I am going to see it through. I think the next two are about creating morning and evening routines, and the final week we’ll reflect back on it all. I am unbelievably excited to continue with HoCo18, even though I know it’s going to go by way too fast!

I was skeptical about Stratejoy at first, but I feel like this might potentially be something I do annually. It’s nice having the guidance as well as just the overwhelming community and support.

Beginning my Sacred Self-Care journey

Recently I wrote about taking a self-care week, since then I had been looking for something more. Something structured. Then low and behold on my instagram feed there it was…

I’ll admit, the goddess thing isn’t my style. Especially the combination of “sacred” and “goddess” together… I’ll refer you to an episode from The Fat Feminist Witch why I find some of this problematic, as she has some interesting points.

Anyway. It seemed like perfect timing. It’s an 8-week course, at a decent price, and includes an self-care oracle deck that I had been considering previously. So a day before the deadline, I signed up.

In these first few days, we’re introducing ourselves to the group — which is rather large, but not intimidating at all because it means we’re all likely to find at least one person to connect with.

I’m hoping that this course helps instill a routine of self-care into my life. Something that turns it into a habit. What I’m not looking for is surface level positivity, all rainbows and sunshine. That’s not real. Nor is it healthy, either.

I’m looking forward to cutting the ties that have been holding me back. Tending to scars. And just reaffirming that even though flawed, I’m still strong and still amazing. I won’t let anything or anyone ever convince me otherwise.

The past several months have almost been strange. I feel good — healthy, strong, confident… happy. Maybe strange is the wrong way to phrase it. But it definitely feels like a change. A very positive change. It’s one of those things where you didn’t realize something was missing or off about your life until suddenly things just click and you feel… well, you feel like the most you you’ve been in a while.

Have you done a self-care course?