small updates…

So I got psychoanalyzed or something yesterday.
Basically I just talked to a dude for an hour and we ended up discussing treatment methods. We decided a combination of medication and therapy would be the ideal situation. So I’ve started Lorazepam (.5mg) daily. (Yay, something new to add to my bag-o-pills.)  I’ve still got to set up the therapy….  Anyway.  I did learn that I did not actually have hallucinations — just illusions.  Which is nice to know.  At least I’m not as crazy as I thought.

I know everyone deals with anxiety… but when it gets to a point of where you can’t really tell what’s causing it anymore, or when you just can’t control it… then it’s time to consider help.  I couldn’t really control my emotions for most of this week.  So I’m hoping the pills will help me deal with the day-to-day while the therapy will work on new methods of dealing with things and addressing these issues.  What I was doing wasn’t really working, so it only make sense to seek some outside help.

Now for something completely different…

I’m not sure what I think about GMail’s themes….

For one, there is very slim section, and they’re not customizable.  (So no gray and pink for me…. or no pink dinosaurs…)  Granted, I do feel that too much freedom will result in nastiness.  (The mail program we used in college, one of them at least, well… I had some friends who tried to make it the loudest non-readable color scheme you could think of…)  .. But well, simple customizations would be nice.  Also well, I’m not a big fan of the nature or the overly cutesy stuff right now.   So I of course went with minimalist, and am letting my labels add some color.