things I'm not okay with today, other than my stepmom's death:

  • sitting at home all day, not accomplishing my goal of walking down to the lake or getting to the bank
  • the lack of cupcakes
  • the amount of junk food I know I’m going to continue to consume
  • how restless I feel
  • that I still haven’t heard from someone and yes I know it’s not about me, but I still feel like I’m losing a friend
  • that I have been fighting and wanting to hide/ignore the fact that I’ve had spasms and tremors lately, and my hand isn’t feeling right…  … neither hand feels right…  …and I’m terrified of facing what it will lead to if this continues.