kinda sorta dating. casually, of course.

So, I’m sort of seeing a couple guys right now.
I think.

Honestly, at this very moment, I’m not sure what’s going on.
(Part of that could be the fact that it’s midnight, I’ve been gone/busy for the last 13 hours and the lack of food… oh, yeah, and I’m blogging from bed because I really should be asleep right now.)

So, there’s a couple guys I’m seeing.  And they make me very happy.  I mean, very happy.  There also very different guys too.  But neither seems to be looking for a relationship and well, they’ve told me that they’re also seeing other people (one said not very seriously and the other didn’t specify).  And by a couple, I should say two — but I’m talking to a few other guys… and maybe I’m still seeing one other… I don’t know.

ANYWAY.  They guys that I think I’m seeing make me very happy.  Though I wouldn’t mind if one of them, or even one of the other guys I’m talking to wanted to date me exclusively… I’m not going to push them for that.  They know that I’m seeing other people too.  But that being said, it’d sort of be nice, and maybe easier, if one would just man up and show some real interest.

That’s why things are confusing.  I don’t know where things stand other than the “it’s casual” sort of thing.  And while, yes, I am okay with this… sometimes I wonder if they see it as we’re casual dating or not.  Because when you get down to it, we’re more than friends.  And then you throw in the fact that maybe one of them might also be casually seeing one of your other friends, but you can’t talk about it… yeah, more confusion.

Like I said.  All of this could be from the fact that my brain wants to shut down and my body just wants to cuddle.  (But with this kinda sorta casual thing, it means there’s no one laying next to me ready to shut off my laptop and throw his arms around me.)

Maybe in the morning none of this will matter.

As Lovely and I would say… BOYS.