it’s not starting over… it’s just starting.

June’s finally arriving, and I seriously cannot wait.  Lovely‘s on her way, and thanks to some super awesome friends, almost all of my stuff is in my new apartment with just one last trip or two needed today.

Though I don’t really need a “starting over” in life right now, I am treating June as a new page.  It’s a lot easier to attack life full force if you’re starting with a fresh canvas.  It’s a little intimidating for some, but really… there’s a lot I want to start and want to do, and well, I’m just going to do that.

Lovely’s a lot better with the plant analogies, but I’m going to be planting a lot of seeds this summer — various ideas and projects will take shape and hopefully bloom into something beautiful.  From the small: eating better; to the medium: finishing a strong portfolio; to the large: applying to grad school, attempting to make steps towards a career I can be passionate about; to the OMG I’m really going to take that on: an interesting venture which will have me going to New York to get this started.  It’s going to be a full-on garden of awesomeness.

I’m still not really certain what’s going to happen in some areas.  I’m not sure I can stay at the Toy Store if I want to push forward with some of these things, just based on the amount of time and energy it demands — it doesn’t seem like much on the surface, but the owner wants us to support the store first, to put her dream first.  And I just can’t afford to do that right now.  But I also can’t leave myself without some sort of financial stability.  (I’m almost considering becoming a waitress again.  At least I’d get tips.)

Regardless.  I’m going to push forward.  (All those motivational and inspirational talks from Josh really have sunk in.  The boy’s a good one.  Truly is.  I can’t wait to see his own dreams come into a reality.)