purposefully disconnecting

I know I’ve only been home from my trip for a few days… but sometime in those days, and well in the days before, I’ve noticed something changing. Maybe even just a need for a change.

I’ve been blogging and toying around online since pre-2000. AOL chat, Livejournal, Geocities and Angelfire anyone? Yeah. As the years progressed, especially in the last 3, the internet has become more and more a part of my life. It was definitely there before I joined 20SB, but that sort of helped it explode into what it’s become. As much as I like my online community, I’m not sure I like what this part of my life is becoming.

My balance between online and offline has been shifting. I’m making more connections online, building a community. It’s what we’re supposed to be doing, right? But what happens when more of your life is online than off?

I came home from California, took a look at Twitter, and felt more disconnected than I expected. A lot had happened online–as it always does–and I wasn’t a part of it, it moved on without me. And I didn’t mind. I wasn’t eager to get back in there. I was eager for another adventure with friends. To hang out, joke around, get drinks… To see and experience more.

I know, especially as technology continues to bleed into every part of society, that there are definite ways to blend and balance your online and offline life. Some people have done that very well. I can’t say that I have. The internet became a crutch for me–a substitute social life. I’m not okay with that any more.

So in the next few months I’m going to try to figure out how to make that balance work. Try to shift more of my life offline. This is not to say that I’m going to quit blogging, or facebook or twitter really. I just need it to have a different purpose in my life, to have less power. To the friends and community I’ve connected with, I’m not leaving you either*. I’ll still be here. Just hopefully happier and healthier.

*I love you all, and am grateful for all the support and love I’ve gotten from you over the years. I’m in no way giving up on that or us.