doing better and getting started on big plans

Okay. So I want to start off by saying I’m doing better. I want to thank everyone for their support in response to my last post. But yeah, doing better.

Part of this whole “doing better” thing is because of some exciting things coming up.

Around New Years, I wrote down a list of things that I want to do, but for some fucking reason I’m not. Things that I’m holding myself back from doing, and there’s really no good reason. I stopped myself at 6. These things have been on my mind for a while–they didn’t cause my break down, but they certainly didn’t help a small part of it.

So, I’m deciding to tackle some things on that list. I’ll hopefully get to all of them, but well, decided that I’m definitely going to make some steps towards the first one. Write more. I’ve missed writing. And I didn’t get as far or involved as I would have liked with NaNoWriMo. So I’ve got some plan at which I’m going to be dedicating quite a bit of time to my writing. Like, most of my evenings for the next two years.

It seems crazy to be taking this on when I’ve got a lot on my plate this year. Season’s Geekings is going full force and launching soon with our Valentine’s cards. (In fact, we’re having our first company meeting. Over brunch, of course.) And of course, there’s a lot going on at my day job. Not to mention a new year of Mucca shows and other concerts I’m super excited about.

I’m not going to go on some spiel about how I’m never going to let things hold me back from what I want or give up on my dreams. Dudes. Things in life are scary, and I’m not always going to grow a pair and go for it. But not everything is worth beating yourself up over.