the anticipation! (pre-birthday restlessness)

I’m getting twitchy. Antsy. Restless.

Why? … My birthday is in 3 weeks.

Birthdays are big things to me. Especially my birthday. (I mean, it’s a day to celebrate me. It may make me vain, shallow, or selfish… but who doesn’t like birthdays?)

Every year I try to plan some spectacular party. For my 18th birthday, I think it was a big water gun fight… My 21st was dinner with my mom & college boyfriend. 25th was a big picnic (with like, 2-3 dozen cupcakes) at a dog park. 27th was cake at one of my favorite bars. I always plan some big event… but they never really work out. It rained, boyfriend didn’t arrive until MANY hours later, it rained again, no one showed up…

So, a few months ago—when, sadly, is when I start thinking about my birthday party—I decided to put on the breaks. As much as I want some big, fantastic party with all my friends, I’m just not going to plan it this year. Trust me. I want to. But I’m tired of getting caught up in the details, and I just want to relax and just enjoy my day with some friends…

Luckily, this year, the Muccas are making that last part easy on me. This year for my actual birthday, I’ll be on the Mucca bus, heading to Brooklyn, NY. You know, I couldn’t be happier. In fact, I’m probably a little too excited about being on a bus for hours and hours. But I’ll be with people that I love, and that’s all that matters.

I’m not even really asking for gifts. I mean, I told my mom she could get me a juicer. And there was one other person who knows of something special I want.. but that’s about it.. And I mean… it’s not like I have some not-so-secret-birthday-wishlist pinterest board… not at all… But as long as I get a lot of hugs from my friends, I’ll consider it to be a super, fantastic birthday. And I couldn’t ask for me.

Do you have special things you do for your birthday? Are you a big planner? Throw big parties? I gotta know I’m not the only one!