dating is weird.

I’ve been wanting to talk about dating for a while. But not really known how to start anything off or what to say.

I’d like to start dating again, but as most of you probably already know, it’s such a weird thing. Not too long ago I put myself out there, and I wanted to see if something would work–just test the waters–but it really didn’t work out for a number of reasons, and I sort of came out of the experience a bit torn up. It was hard, and it still kind of hurts. But I want to keep moving forward and see what else is out there for me.

As I mentioned briefly a couple weeks ago, I finally logged into my online dating profile for the first time in ages. I’m talking to a couple people, but I don’t necessarily have high hopes for it. Which leaves me with that weird question and wondering of “so, where else am I supposed to meet someone?”

I’m not a big “go to bars and try to randomly meet a dude” type of person. And for some reason it never really feels like my social life lends itself to this sort of opportunity. Granted, besides touring, I guess I don’t have much of a social life. And most of the guys you meet on tour aren’t looking for more than that one night… not to mention I’m working from doors open until the tour bus leaves. So I’m back to the “where is this going to happen” thing.

Now, I do know there are some good, decent guys out there who have expressed interest in me. And I appreciate it and am flattered, but I just don’t feel that romantic spark. So, yes. It does feel really weird to me to say “where do I find a good guy” when there are good guys right here in front of me. But you just can’t force it if it’s not there. (And I know, being on the opposite side of that sucks, a lot. It’s not that easy or comfortable on this side either though.)

I get the whole “things work out in their own time” and “you’ll find him when you stop looking”… but there’s something to be said with being a little proactive and putting yourself out there a bit. I’m not terribly worried or stressed or preoccupied by all this. But I do know that I’d like to go on more dates and just see what and who is out there… and what possibilities there might be.

So. Future Next Boyfriend: I mean, I want you to be in a good place when you come into my life — ’cause I’m not about fixing anyone. But, hi. Yeah. Totally ready to meet you/figure out who you are.